Thinking about what would happen if I went to see you
Would you be nice Would you be mean Would you be everything I imagined in my dreams I’m so close to you yet so far away I wish I could talk to you everyday There’s nothing for my mom that I wouldn't do But obviously that means nothing to you I know you were just 18 I know you were so young But it pains me that you’ve abandoned my mum When I come to Atlanta it reminds me of you And everything you didn’t do Like the moment mum told me you married her step mother Then you decided not to be her father And it really broke her heart That her relationship with you fell apart I know my mom feels really sad You remind me of the grandpa I want but never had Would you even care if my mom died? How can you just leave your daughter, how do you just walk away? How can you not want to meet your grandkids one day? And when I see mums younger siblings I feel mad I feel mad that you don’t love her I feel mad that you don’t know me I feel mad that your the only grandpa that I have left alive But when I come to Atlanta I have to act like you’ve died |
AuthorDeborah Senyange Archives
June 2017
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