She wanted to say " Why don't they like me", but she couldn't do it, not again. She was so tired of begging for people's attention. She was tired of carrying the burden of being someone she was not. She longed for someone to see her for who she really was inside. She wanted to escape, but she didn't know what direction in which she should go. All the paths she'd been walking down only seemed to be taking her around in circles. There came a high then there came a low, but she still didn't feel like she was getting anywhere. She wanted to feel like she was growing. She didn't know what she had even though it had always been right in front of her. She was blinded because she decided to listen to the voices telling her it was not there. She was at a cross road, stuck in between a narrow path and a wide path. Everyone seemed to be going down the wide path, but because she was tired of putting her trust in people she decided to walk in faith to the narrow path of life.. Blessed is the man who believes, trust in, and relies on the Lord and whose hope and confident expectation is the Lord. For he will be like a tree planted by the waters,that spread out its roots by the river; And will bot fear the heat when it comes; But its leaves will be green and mist. And it will not be anxious and concerned in a year of drought nor stop bearing fruit- Jeremiah 17:7-10 Then my heart sank, it drowned to the bottom of hopelessness. My vision blurred, all I could see in the room was emptiness even though I was surrounded by people. I saw my dreams shatter. I had projected them to be among the stars in the skies, and I was just moments away from reaching that finish line. All of a sudden it came falling very hard and fast . My mouth dropped in amazement at the speed at which it crashed. Isn't it funny how all of my work that I had built over the years can fall in a matter of seconds? Even the smallest things that I had been taking for granted. I started battling with my thoughts and emotions. "Maybe I should go back and try again? Maybe I still have another chance? Maybe I didn't try hard enough? Maybe I missed something?Just wait, I can't take back the past. Yesterday is a closed door, I don't live there anymore. I need to escape. Where do I go from here?" I began to look around, I was lost. "Come to me, all of you who are weary and loaded with burdens and I will give you rest.Place My yoke on you and learn from me, because I am gentle and humble, and you will find rest for your souls, because my yoke is pleasant, and my burden is light".-Matthew 11:28 It won't get easier
Life is going to get harder Things are going to fall apart You are going to cry You are going to be lost Doors are going to close People you love will go away The world is going to become uglier Nights are going to get lonelier Days will turn darker I know it all seems scary But do it anyway I called to the Lord in my distress; the Lord answered me openly. The Lord is with me. I will not be afraid. What can people do to me? With the Lord beside me as my helper, I will triumph over those who hate me.It is better to take shelter in the Lord than to trust in people. Indeed you oppressed me so much that I almost fell, but the Lord helped me. The Lord is my strength and protector, for he has become my deliverer.I will not die, but I will recount the deeds of the Lord. The Lord will discipline me severely, but he won't hand me over to die. psalm 118 My worst enemy is my memory Trapped in my own penitentiary The only thing I can never let myself forget Are the things that I deeply regret My past looks black Worst nightmares coming back I wish I can get over The chances that I didn't go for My memories are haunting For the things that I've been wanting My deep dark story I need to admit i'm sorry For letting myself regret For being trapped in this mindset I need to let myself be free I need to forgive me Now is the time I face my fears Now is the time I wipe away these dry tears Brothers, I do not consider that I have made it my own. But one thing I do: forgetting what lies behind and straining forward to what lies ahead, I press on toward the goal for the prize of the upward call of God in Christ Jesus.- Philippians 3:13 My breath, choking My heart , broken My risk, taken My body, shaken My hands, bloody My words, cunning My eyes, wet My cold, sweat My new,beginning My Jesus, forgiving My chains, free My fruit, tree "He will be like a tree planted by streams of water,yielding its fruit in its season, and whose leaf does not wither. He will prosper in everything he does."- psalm 1:3 Therefore, my brethren, you also were made to die to the Law through the body of Christ, so that you might be joined to another, to Him who was raised from the dead, in order that we might bear fruit for God. For while we were in the flesh, the sinful passions, which were aroused by the Law, were at work in the members of our body to bear fruit for death.-Romans 7:4 My storm, my hurricane
My life, my lane My hurt, my pain My eyes, my rain My thoughts, my brain My actions, my insane My blood, my veins My past, my chain My mistakes, my stain My freedom, my abstain My seed, my grain My work, my gain My God, my domain And I heard a loud voice from the throne saying, “Behold, the dwelling place of God is with man. He will dwell with them, and they will be his people, and God himself will be with them as their God.- Revelation 21:3 Holding on is for the week How many of you are able to turn the other cheek For only the brave and the bold Are able to let go of this vigorous hold Forgiving and letting go Is the only way for us to really grow If you're not moving on from your sorrow You have turned your back away from tomorrow It is a gift you give yourself Don't think it is for someone else A bridge that is made out of glass That can be at times very difficult to pass Very often this bridge can break Which can cause even the strongest person to feel the ache A poison that consumes the heart Has the strength to tear the strongest bonds apart In order to be free from this prison We need to come across this division For in the bible it is written Forgive as you would like to be forgiven That is the reason why Christ has risen To help people in that condition For he is the greatest physician He lifts the fallen from the floor He fixes our wings so we can soar Forgiving is the final form of love That is why Christ was sent from above Get rid of all bitterness, rage and anger, brawling and slander, along with every form of malice. Be kind and compassionate to one another, forgiving each other, just as in Christ God forgave you.- Ephesians 4:31 Slim waist
figure 8 defined cheeks eyebrows on fleek round lips nice hips beat face curves in the right place just finished doing my nails always have to watch the number on the scales new hair cut nice perky butt maybe I should get my boobs done I don't want to look like I have none maybe I should go buy a weave there are still a lot of men that I can deceive going out to get another new hair do the crazy things women have to go through nice perfect skin Is that how you really win? Wash board abs lean muscles no flabs fresh hair cut along with a nice big nut 6 foot or taller the man better have a dollar If you ever want to holler you better be a baller or a scholar I'm looking for the perfect guy Is there one that I can buy? When you gain the whole world you lose your soul your heart will reflect an empty bowl true beauty lies within the brain that shouldn't be so hard to explain something that remains correct no one can ever be perfect don't judge a book by its cover there is still a story you have to uncover everyone has a different story everyone falls short of God's glory Your beauty should not come from outward adornment, such as elaborate hairstyles and the wearing of gold jewelry or fine clothes. Rather, it should be that of your inner self, the unfading beauty of a gentle and quiet spirit, which is of great worth in God’s sight.-1 peter 3:3-4 But the LORD said to Samuel, “Do not consider his appearance or his height, for I have rejected him. The LORD does not look at the things people look at. People look at the outward appearance, but the LORD looks at the heart.”- 1 samuel 16:7 Within your arms I have nothing to fear
My heart finds joy whenever you are near Talking to you makes my day You always know just what to say You hold a special place in my heart Nothing in this world can tear that apart I love you more than words can explain A bond so strong it breaks every chain Without you I would go insane I am the addict and you are the cocaine My sunshine after the rain Being by your side numbs all the pain A love that is unconditional Together we become invincible Next to you is where I belong All the sacrifices you made for me inspires me to be strong Together we defy all the odds Because through you I found God There is nothing else in the world that can compare To a mother's love and how much she cares There are so many more things I would like to say But i'm just going to end with Happy Mother's day And now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love.- 1 corinthians 13:13 |
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